Ah, you said you were gunna do something on mortality, and you did. It's actually both funny and deep at the same time. After a very hard two years, this is basically how I feel about death. It's actually kind of sad. I no longer expect to live a long life, but would think myself lucky to get past 30, let alone 40.
Actually the thought of death doesn't scare me at all. Not living life to the fullest is a much more frightening prospect. Either way I know were I'm going when this puff of vapor we call life is over.
The thought of my own mortality is actually pretty scary. I remember a nightmare I had where I was pulled aside and told I had been sentenced to death by lethal injection. The odd part was that I didn't fight, or scream. I just went calmly to my fate. I remember being strapped in to the chair. Then I woke up. Really scary shit...
That's why it helps work in groups and write it down for the next bunch of guys. The process never stops, but we stand on the shoulders of the giants that elevate us, it would be cruel to deny the next generation that privilege.